Nov
30
2020

Waiting with the Dark Week 2: Opening to the Ancestors

For Seekers – From Art of Change Tarot – Sanctuary – Seasonal Observances

This is the second week of the season-long ritual, Descent and Return of the Light, that takes the Winter Solstice as its hinge. You are invited to join the e-retreat in progress for support in tending the season with daily emails and weekly virtual circles.

The cry of the geese as they migrate leaves a melancholy echo. Then silence. Most other birds have gone before and many creatures of the land are in their dens. Leaves have fallen from trees; the bare and quiet branches stand against sky.

The emptiness can seem bleak, but opportunity flows into its openness. A view to distant mountains opens up without leaves. And while nature withdraws at this time of year, the presence of the ancestors grows stronger. We tell stories of the recent dead at our holiday gatherings, passing on their memory and gifts to a new generation. We enact small rituals, cook holiday foods, and gather in ways that ancestors from generations in the past began. We celebrate traditions and wisdom inherited from spiritual and religious paths nurtured by the ancestors of ancient times.

The ancestors are our biological family, of course, but also those connected to us through choice, place, ideas, and traditions. Like the living, they are a mix of wise ones and trouble makers; sometimes all mixed in the same person. [Daily prompts for inspiration for thinking about these different types of ancestors are part of the e-rereat.]

These ancestors come with gifts to offer and as the days grow darker the way opens for rituals, meditations, and reflections that connect us to their wisdom. Celtic teacher Caitlín Matthews offers this counsel for connecting with the ancestors in her book The Celtic Spirit:

“[The ancestors] who were the wisdom-bearers and way-showers in their lives have not ceased from these roles. By asking our spiritual allies in meditation to take us to meet one or more of our wise ancestors, the living ancestors, we can travel to the timeless otherworld and visit them. We can discover spiritual allies in our living ancestors, consulting them about matters to do with our family, our way of live, and ways of respecting the spiritual core of all things.”

 

This Week’s Ritual

In this week in our movement toward the Solstice, we create sacred space and light four candles, but then blow one out to create a doorway through which the loving ancestors can pass to join us in the circle of light. We sit with them, receptive to the gifts they have to share.

You may want to bring out pictures of the ancestors you know to be with you in the candle light.

If working with a Tarot or oracle deck, you could pull three cards – court/people cards would be the most appropriate if using a Tarot deck – to help you open to messages of love the ancestors are sending to you. Place each card by a candle and spend time contemplating its possible message(s). Finally contemplate them as a group.

 

 

 

In the e-retreat, daily e-mails provide reflection prompts for each element as you move through the week as well as inspiring quotes and images. We also have weekly tele/audio circles. You are invited to join us. Next week’s theme is Dark Power.

 

Nov
25
2020

Waiting with the Dark Week 1: Gratitude

For Seekers – Practices for Soul & Spirit – Sanctuary – Seasonal Observances

This is the first week of the season-long ritual, Descent and Return of the Light, that takes the Winter Solstice as its hinge. This week we prepare to spend time in the dark of the year and gather materials for our candle wheels; one less candle will be lit each week as we move toward embracing the gifts of long nights. Coming out of Solstice we circle back through the candle wheel, lighting one more candle each week. You are invite to join the e-retreat for support in making this circle with daily emails and weekly virtual circles.

This week we prepare to journey into the dark. All journeys require preparation, even the inner journey. But we need a different kind of gear to travel on these paths. What we carry can not weigh us down; it must be light but powerful. Must fit into a bag no larger than a Seeker’s bundle and provide what we need to move through any challenge.

Our gratitude is the gear to help us travel in the dark. In this first week of the Descent and Return of the Light, we pause to gather in our gratitude by reflecting on gifts given during the passing season of harvest and the whole of the year.

Gratitude is a powerful gift that can be sparked from the smallest things. Jean Shinoda Bolen in her book Crones Don’t Whine writes of its nature:

Gratitude is something we have inside us that rises to the surface when something in particular invites it out. Gratitude is a wonderful spiritual practice, actually. Every time you breathe an “ahhhh” or savor a moment, a thank-you for being alive is rising from your soul to fill your heart. Yes, it’s about the beauty of seeing the geese flying overhead, but it’s more: it’s a thank-you to the geese, to nature…And even more than this, it’s a thank-you that I am here, and that I have a place in the universe (pp. 60-61).

Gratitude wells up spontaneously in us at times, and we can also invite gratitude to come meet us. We can create rituals that deepen our connection to gratitude.

The structure of ritual supports us even when our seeking is difficult. We need this support now; the times we live in are troubling. And as fires and floods keep come one after another, I worry about us humans and our ability to live on a warming planet with generosity and compassion for each other. To acknowledge rather than ignore the intensity of our reality in 2020, we are attending to lament along with gratitude as we make our way through the week. You can see how they travel along side each other in my diary post for the week.

In such times as these, gratitude lifts us by reminding of us the good in our lives. Gratitude lifts us not so we ignore the hard truth, but so we have the energy to meet the challenges, to try to make things a little better.  And no matter our difficulties, we receive elemental support. Each morning comes to us as gift from the Sun’s fire. Each moment are held by the earth and enliven by the air. Water enters our bodies so our inward flow continues.

The elements bless us each day and this week as we begin our time of tending to the dark, gratitude for the elemental good in our lives is the focus.  

To Begin: Create the Waiting with the Dark Candle Wheel

Create your wheel by placing four candles surrounded by something like holly or evergreen branches to represent the everlasting light in the dark. You may wish to have a central inspiring element. I have placed a fifth pillar candle, black and light rock, and small sculptures at the center of my wheel though the years.

For this week’s ritual you are invited to light four candles representing the four elements of fire, water, air, and earth. If working with the Tarot, you can take out the aces out of your deck and place them next to each candle. As you light each candle pause to offer a gratitude for a different areas of your life inspired by the elemental association and images on your Tarot cards.  Take time to bask in the candle light before concluding.

Engage in this ritual practice as much as you have time and space for in your life. Perhaps you set aside an hour on one night or do just five minutes of candle lighting each night this week. Find your own rhythm and lead by the guidance of gratitude.

In the e-retreat, daily e-mails provide reflection prompts for each element as you move through the week as well as inspiring quotes and images. We also have weekly tele/audio circles. You are invited to join us. Next week’s theme is Opening to the Ancestors.

 

Nov
25
2020

Waiting with the Dark Gratitude—and Lament—Diary

For Seekers – Practices for Soul & Spirit – Seasonal Observances

11/14/20 – Earth

It’s the first gratitude day of Waiting with the Dark when we are inspired by the element of earth to appreciate all things physical, natural, solid. Instead of sitting in meditation, I go for a gratitude walk, doing the circuit I did all spring when we were under stay at home orders. 

The sky is bright blue and the sun shining draws my attention upward. The trees are bare of leaves. Towering shapes are revealed and high up in branches I see nests, empty now but I know they brought forth the next generations of sparrows, robins, orioles. All the birds that sang to me as New England warmed. 

I arrive at the pond and pause. The sky’s reflection turns the water blue except at the edges. Here I see down to the mud and it reminds me of the white lotus and green lily pads that bloomed here. 

I walk on, feel the ground under my feet, think: The earth always holds us, steadies us.

In the same moment I remember the earth on fire in Australia, California, all over the west. Communities were devastated. Too many died. And in a number hard to hold, three billion more-than-human beings left the planet. When it happened in the spring I stood on the edge of that number and skirted away, but walking today I let it sink in and it is horrific. Billions, yes, billions of koalas, foxes, rabbits, deer dead and their habitat destroyed. The earth didn’t hold them.

I walk on and encounter the Catalpa tree I watched bud, leaf, and bloom with a lushness that seems more of the Tropics than New England. It’s a skeleton now, branches of somber sticks and there are these long slim pods of deep brown. The seeds of the next generation. They wait for late winter or early spring to let go winged seeds to seek some moist ground in which to plant themselves. 

Life is fragile and fleeting, subject to natural and human-caused storms. And we humans are driving the earth’s systems to the edge of collapse. But life is also, inventive, persistent, beautiful. The seed of renewal and the next cycle coming is always present. Life fragile and life persistent are true together. My gratitude for earth’s inventive beauty grows even stronger when I hold it up against the possibility of collapse. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Nov
16
2020

Reading of the Death Moonth: The power of the dream

For Grievers – For Seekers – Moonthly Renewal – Practices for Soul & Spirit – Sanctuary

Death comes in the middle. 

As we travel year after year with the moon’s cyclical shifting through the consistent solar round, we learn the same lessons in new ways. We are tempered by time and our wisdom deepened. 

And so now, as we do each year, we encounter Death—through this Tarot card’s correspondence to the astrological sign of Scorpio—to be changed and shaped again by the symbols, wisdom figures, and layered meanings offered by this image. This soul shaping path of Death opens up this year for us starting with the new moon coming overnight November 14th into the 15th (exact at 12:07am ET on Sunday, the 15th).

Death comes again. Yes, death comes in the middle of our lives.

This has long been a description of Death I’ve offered to people confronting one of the Tarot’s most notorious cards. When I’d teach a class or welcomed visitors during open houses at my studio, I’d point out the 21 super-sized Major Arcana cards displayed on the wall, and, yes, at card number 13 Death pretty much was in the middle. Of course, I’d follow up with the usual caveat that the Death card’s meaning isn’t really about physical death, but more about transformations that renew our lives and society.


From Tarot Roots of Asia 

But in November 2012 Death broke into my life. My partner John died in a car crash and I encountered Nothing. He was utterly gone. Death in my life had brought me to the End. Hard stop.

Death shattered my beliefs. I hadn’t thought that we retained our earthly personalities after death, but I thought there would be Something. Instead Nothing closed around me.  

And then I had a dream.

I dream a field of wild grass blowing, dry, but with the slow whoosh of blades bowing.

A cottontail crosses my path.

I follow the rabbit to a room without walls. Rise up into this place with a table, old wood polished. I leave something on the table as I pass through the room. I hear it land with a clank.

And beyond, finally, John is sitting there wearing an electric blue T-shirt, the usual cap.

He is holding a box. He is reading a food label. He is saying: “There can’t possibly be any tomato in this thing – and it’s not organic.”

And I am moving toward him as he is reading and talking. I am reaching like you would reach for a cat you don’t want to escape under the couch. I am grasping his arms and looking into his eyes, saying: “I love you. I love you forever.”

He looks a little surprised. He had, after all, only been talking about a tomato.  

I woke with a wet face, but these tears were refreshing. So absolutely himself from his cap to his tomato reprimand, John was there. He wasn’t alive in body, but I had encountered him in a distinct way. A feeling of connection was as bright within me as his blue shirt. Nothing became Something.

The Something come from the Dream was Love. Death didn’t end Love. Love returned Death to the middle of my life. I began moving again, feeling my way toward tending this loving flow between John and me. (More of this story and practice prompts for doing the same with your beloved dead are in Speak Soul to Soul available on the website.

I am telling you this personal story because it aligns with this new moon’s invitation to the collective, to all of us. This moonth’s path of Death passes through the place on the Wheel of the Year associated with the 7 of Cups. This is the card of dreams and fantasies, those strange visions that arise from the depths of our desires and bring us to new places.


The Shining Tribe Tarot‘s version of the 7 of Cups

 
Dreams and fantasies are derided by mainstream society’s rational culture and norms. The powers that be frown upon daydreaming and reading fantasy novels. They’d rather we were productive. Why? Maybe deep in their subconscious they know that dreams and fantasies are truly powerful. They break the spell of control they’d like to exert over us. When we dream beyond the way things are, we lay the foundation for the transformation of current reality. 
 
A recent national death experience—the 2016 election—seemed to some to send the US into a formerly unimaginable End. Many in shock just wanted to return to what had been before, but when Death comes, going back is not in our power. So, others began to dream of Something else. 
 
They gave voice to their Somethings with words whose power grew the more they were echoed: Black lives matter—all black lives. You are not alone, #metoo. United we dream. Joy to the polls! 
 
And these Somethings have moved us through this US national death experience and into a new presidential team. I’ve talked with people of various backgrounds post-election about how they feel a tension they weren’t even tracking being released from their body. I watched the commentator Van Jones weep on TV saying, “And this is a big deal for us just to be able get some peace and have a chance for a reset.”
 
The cards of this moonth invite us to keep dreaming. Despite real and immediate challenges ahead—Death remains active in our lives—the 7 of Cups reminds us of the power of dreaming to keep Death from becoming an ending.
 

Of course, dreaming alone does not complete the transformation. We must act. The model for our action this moonth is the Knight of Cups. The Tarot’s Knights are dedicated to their causes. They move at different speeds, motivated by different elemental forces, but they are united in constant movement toward what serves the good of the Whole. 


Yup, it’s John as the Knight of Cups from the Mass Tarot Deck

 
Knights of Cups, when they are in their most powerful flow, are in touch with their emotions, own even their wildest desires, and dare to imagine beyond the boundaries of what currently exists. They are open to allies in all the realms. They stand shoulder to shoulder with the living, and imagine their beloved dead at their side, their ancestors at their backs. 
 
Knights of Cups move into dreams with their whole broken-open hearts and unite their hands with others to make the dream real. 
 
The reflection questions / reading of the moonth is offered to support dreaming through Death are: 
 
DEATH: What ending is opening up in the middle of my life?
 
DREAM: What dream can come through the opening made by Death?
 
MAKING THE DREAM REAL: How can I best step into making the dream real during this moonth? 
 
I do offer this as an e-reading in my collaborative initiative format for $23.  Sign up with Pay Pal or email me about sending a check. When I receive notification, I’ll be in touch to let you know about when to expect to receive your reading by email. I generally have openings to do these readings on Mondays and Saturdays. 
 
If you’d like to more on-going support for your dreaming through these long nights that come before the Solstice, you are invited to join us for the e-retreat Descent and Return of the Light

This will be the 6th year that I have offered Descent and Return of the Light. Each year the themes stay the same, but I weave in reflections and practices to meet the needs of the current year. This year we will include lament with our gratitude practice and dive deep to release all that we don’t want to carry from the sometimes crushing weight of 2020 into the new year. We will seek the regeneration that comes from working with rather than pushing away the darkness that comes at Winter Solsticetide. 

Nov
13
2020

Dark Moon Release with Maat as our Guide

For Seekers – Moonthly Renewal – Practices for Soul & Spirit – Sanctuary

Before the moon is made new overnight Saturday, the 14th, into Sunday, the 15th (exact at 12:07am on the 15th), it returns to the place on the astrological Wheel where it began its moonthly journey. The energy gathered through the moonth now flows away into moonless nights. What will you send with this energy to be transformed in the dark?

The moonth we are concluding began and now ends in Libra which corresponds to the Tarot’s Justice card. In the Dark Goddess Tarot, Justice is Maat, the Egyptian Goddess of Truth and Justice. Ellen Lorenzi-Prince, creator of the Dark Goddess Tarot, description of her includes:

[Maat] becomes the scale itself. Within the Hall of Truth, she weighs the souls of the deceased as they enter the underworld. The human heart, where the soul has its home, is balanced against her single sacred feather. A light heart, one free from wrongdoing, may continue on the journey toward paradise. The unworthy heart is devoured by the ferocious monster of the underworld, the goddess Ammut.

Before death, people prepared to stand before Maat by learning prayers and having these words of power inscribed on the walls of their burial places. Scholar and writer Normandi Ellis in her work Awakening Osiris has created a poetic translation of these prayers and inscriptions, including what are known as the Negative Confessions:

Hail hands of fire, baker of bread and men and truth, I’ve not fed myself before the hungry child. I’ve not carried off the praise intended for gods. May we live forever.

Hail white teeth, a biter of heads, devourer of men, I have not killed the cow nor uprooted the wheat, but that I know its spirit feeds mine. When the time comes, I give up life without regret to feed a spirit greater than mine. I shall die, a small thing becoming part of the larger world. May we live forever and forever. 

May the light shine through us and on us and in us. May we die each night and be born each morning that the wonder of life not escape us. May we love and laugh and enter lightly into each other’s hearts. May we live forever. May we live forever. 

Dark moon times are a chance to touch the underworld energy and prepare for our own transition from the earthly into the eternal one day. In this darkness, Maat guides us to release our hearts from any and all constriction. Here we peel off what troubles and inhibits us so that the heart can follow its natural attraction to the beauty, balance, and truth of Maat. She invites us to speak our prayers of release aloud so that the energy of the words becomes a magnet that we follow into manifestation. 

Starting with the 48 hours before the new moon’s arrival at 12:07am ET on the 15th, the dark moon comes to support our transformation. You are invited to engage in reflection and ritual to celebrate acheivements of the moonth passing and release what you do not want to carry into the next lunation. 

Reflection

Look back on the happenings of the moonth that began on October 16th. If you journal, you’ll have a handy record for your personal memories, but even just looking back at your appointment calendar or photos taken can jog your mind about what’s been going on in the past few weeks. The collective happenings of the time were many so you could use them as a guide for reviewing as well.

As you look back, especially tune into the times and situations where your heart felt most open and light as well as the times and situations where your heart felt most constricted and heavy.  

Reflect further on the times when your heart felt most open and light. What supported this openness? What did the lightness made possible? You may want to write out some lines of gratitude to Hail and Welcome all that supported your heart in this moonth. Be sure to say them aloud.

Finally, seek to understand with more clarity the times and reasons for why your heart was constricted and heavy during the moonth. Write brief statements on slips of paper to express these heart-heavy times. Take these strips of paper into the Dark Moon Release Ritual.

Dark Moon Release Ritual

Bring your heart constrictions strips of paper with you and an equal number of blank strips of paper with you.

Create sacred space by lighting a candle, imagining that you are ringed with a circle of protection, and/or your usual actions.

You can invite Maat and/or the face of Greater Than that you have been serving this moonth to with you and aid you in this dark moon release. Spend as much time as you need connecting with Them.

When you are ready, take your first constriction strip of paper. Read it silently. Rip it up. Call on Maat and/or your face of the Greater Than to help you write out a counter balancing statement to the one you just ripped up. This statement will move you to a lighter heart. Once you have crafted your statement, read it out loud. Do this for as many statements as you have. 

After you have completed your releasing, tune into your body, feeling it lighter. Re-center yourself by connecting with earth below you and the sky above you. Feel their energy mix in your heart. Offer gratitude. Be open to a blessing coming to you from Maat and/or your face of the Greater Than.

When the new moon arrives, you may want to make wishes for your light heart will guide you in the moonth to come. Be sure to write them down to revisit at the end of the moonth.

 

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